sWeety

my online shop

2008-09-13T21:08:00.001+08:00

hee~
pls do drop in to
my online blog and give me some comment ok?!!!!!!!!!

http://romancing-rocher.blogspot.com/

:D
:D
:D

sick baby jo

2008-08-18T22:57:00.007+08:00

whats the aftermath of the big celebration???

hee...
i brought baby and my in-laws to pizza hut the very nxt day...
to celebrate his REAL bday date....
in the end..
he fall leabe...
today took child sick leave and tc of him at home the whole day...

poor baby...
hai..

waiting for pizza hut impatiently....

my room became mini storeroom after his bday...
full of toys toys toys and more toys!!!!

him enjoying 1 of the toy toy~

den.....

fall sick....

oh gosh...
my baby look so glum and sick...
hai..

<<***fever
=running nose+blooced nose+cough+phlegm+sore throat

hai.....so sick lo....

but....
he's still my cheerful happy baby!!!!!!!!!

my precious cutie baby~
love him lots!!!!!!!!!!

baby's 1st bday

2008-08-18T22:22:00.005+08:00

many thanks to those who came for my baby's 1st bday!!!!!!
:D
it was a success and..
i hope everyone have fun!

so sorry i can;t chat with everyone for long but i really tried my best to mingle as much as i can~
hope u guys can understand~

it will b a blog full of pics~

let's look at the pics~

his bday cake!!!

The family~

more random pics below...
muahahahha

sorry all~~~~
i;m juz too lazy to introduce all the pic...
i'm tired beat...
cos my baby's sick and i took 1 ay to acc him at home...
geez...

my first step out

2008-08-14T22:25:00.005+08:00

Hi peeps!!!
sorry for the sudden lost in updates~been pretty busy these few weeks..
wit work...
family commitment..
and my first step to business venture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hee...
let's go through 1 by 1...

hmm...
as u know...
i work for SP Sevices..
and they've upgraded the system..
so yup..
= more work load~
nth much to say abt work (not interesting at all~)

my family!!!
my baby's final turning 1!!!
and we're celebrating it at my in-laws house void deck,
at 653 woodlands Ring rd void deck

all peeps~
pls do try to attend pls!!!!
:D

my precious finally turning 1 soon!!!!
yupz~~

i know he;s forced into taking photo with me..
hee~
i juz love him so much~

my precious in action~
he knows how to stand on his own and got 6 cutie teethie~
muahahhaha
he mae me proud!!!

(*^_^*)

Totally contented!!!!!

muahaha~

hee...
i have always wanted to sell rocher flower bouquet..
and i;ve taken my first step!!!!!

some samples~~

Lovely blue with purple~

Lovely pink~

how's my creation?????
issit nice??

been trying to set up a bloggy to display my products...
but i'm juz so damn lazy~
arghz!!!!

i remembered making these with my poly babes during our CCN day,

and i juz missd the old days when we're still so close tgt~

hai..

i miss all my frenz~

pls do come for my baby's bday party so i can catch up with u all~

some updates

2008-07-09T23:03:00.005+08:00

some random pics from home.
lol...

that's my cousin trying hard to take care of 2 babies..
mine and hers..
at the same time!!!

ok..
so u guys should have heard abt the flash fire in SP buliding..
es,
we went out of the building for ant 30 mins...
hectic, chaotic.
but we really do enjoy this short break from work!!!!

some funny pics!!

everyone gather for discussion...

cam whoring...

v
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Last but not least...
more updates about my own family!!!!!!!!!!

This is how baby jo slp while in baby car seat while we driving...
lol..
cute huh????

the sexy hot mama + fat 'monk'

<<**we r the luckiest +most fortunate couple** >>

>>Pls dun b envious...5 yrs down the road and still deeply in love~ opps!!!!

went to carl's jr~
c the father-son bonding!!

Simply adore my life now...
now exactly glamorous..
juz..

plain and happy.....
i'm happy the way it is now~

God blessed us~

baby jo is a terror

2008-07-06T13:31:00.002+08:00

`qawerok.

i;m trying real hard to blog now.

baby's jo sitting on the table and trying rea hard to throw remote controls
towards my LapPy!!!!

he's a terrorist.
\
lol.

well..he was sitting on my lappy and manage to pull out the 'space-bar' key board!!

hai. gotta stop now b4 my lappy explode3!35

a day at home

2008-06-30T21:33:00.003+08:00

currently at my own house...
i realised i've lost a lot of frenz through this sudden twist in my life...
me, not being to blog more frequent...
show more concern to my frenz...

i feel so lonely...

bOo....

pics!

2008-06-29T22:22:00.002+08:00

Time to load some pics~!!!

Lol!!! this my super sweet hubby with my cute baby!!!

my colleague at work! shioky and baby!!!

Baby jovian!!!!!!!!!!!

Basically, my whole world revolves around my family!!!!!!!

my life so busy right now..
actually,
intend to set up a online shop selling roche flower...

but the souvenir shops at concourse has been closed!!!!!!!!!!
boo!!!!!!!!!!!

i duno where have all the shops closed and went to...
anyone know???

bOo...

there goes my online shop plan...

:(

its ok

2008-06-21T21:49:00.002+08:00

haha~ so sad..not much frenz notice i'm blogging already!!!
but its ok.
haha

my hubby finally back for the weekend!!!!!!
after freaking 16 days (him in BMT),
i finally get to c him!!!!

woo hoo~!

think its beter to skip the mushy details...
haha....

yup,
life has been very hectic!!!!
work-home take car-fetch baby-drive hom-do housechores-slp

arghz!!!

this has been the complete cycle for my EVERYDAY LIFE right now

hai..
so hope my hubby dear dun need to go back NS....
den i dun need to b alone and b so....

MISERABLE!!!!!

hais..

sugh sighz sighz....

my precious baby is slping eside me now~
cutie..

he's been such an angel....

heee....

tml my dear gonan go back tekong le...
hai...

another buzy week for me...
so many days ahead..

bOo!!!!

i need more love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hai...

2008-06-12T21:22:00.002+08:00

haoz...

as i expected..

NO ONE ANKNOWLEDG MY EXISTENCE!!!

its ok....

been trying to update baby's jo and my recent news and photos~
but wat's the point when no one know i stary blogging again???

hahahhahaha!!

have brought baby jo for studio photo taking~
he's been a sweet naughty baby~

and he's turning 1 in 2 month time...

all frenz are invited to come for his bday celebration!!1

date and timne will b recfm.

but evry one pls try to make urself free!!!!

(*^_^*)

can;t be happier than i am now~

back on track

2008-06-10T23:43:00.002+08:00

Hi peeps!!!!

i'm finally back to blog.
but i think everyone can't b bothered to ready anymore...
few months past since my last post -_-

Yupz!
i'm having a fairly good life now~
*^_^* (triple cheers for SIMONE)

have a stable job!!! (triple cheers!!)
hubby in army (so miss him :( )

have a super cutelicious baby!!!! (jovian = love + love + love!)

Life have been meaningful and hectic recently~
but i've beening having all kinds of support from everyone~

in-laws are super nice to me!!!!
same for my parent~
and frenz too!!!

yup~

getting on track..
getting back to life...

ho ho ho!!!

i'm back on blogging!!!!

*** short post to c if anyone reply~
or anyone still remember i exist....***

chubby simoney back on track...
stay tune for more post....

***(^_^)***

baby life

2007-09-29T18:29:00.000+08:00

i;m so bz with baby to blog anymore..hee..
anyway,
life's great with this new member in my family~
:D

went to perm my hair,
i really wan to load my pics but i'm too lazy..
wahaha!

a new life with baby =extreme tiredness..
lol..

luckily i got super great family and super great in-laws to hlp me~
yippey!

oh ya,
giving birth is indeed the most painful thing anyone can experience.
but,
when the moment baby pop out..
its the most miraculous moment..
hee..

i'm so blessed.

my baby

2007-09-05T16:25:00.000+08:00

Cutie baby at home!!

ok..he's my precious!!

haha

i'm inviting everyone fopr his full month on 15th sept 2007..

mos likely evening...

please do come..

blessed

2007-08-28T18:45:00.000+08:00

I'm blessed to have this little angel~

still pregnant

2007-08-15T22:51:00.000+08:00

that's my mom n my younger bro~

That's cutest en en baby n her mom~

That's me & my dear~

Guess my family are the only support i have now..
ever since moving back to my own house,
i've been depending on them for luaghters & peace

yah,i'm still very pregnant.
but my baby's out soon (i hope!)

my parents r super supportive n encouraging throughout this period,
really very touched by their effort~

my brothers r trying their best to fulfill my appetite..
hee..
thanks them for my weight gain man...lol..

and all my cousins who have beeen accompanying me,
emotrionally, or physically all these while
really appreciate them lots~

so miss my frenz n buddies..
but i really can;t meet them out since i;m so pregnant..

:(

but my family have tried their best to bring me out as much as possible~
:)

so..
i;ve been to beach...walk..
and eat eat eat eat at different place~
:D

That's super pretty me on my way for check up~
hee..

that's me, 9th month pregnant...
and my super pretty gyane...
lol!

yes, i look fat.
lol..

let's hope everything can go according to plan after baby's out~

:D

sad

2007-08-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

i'm forbidded to go out,
other than CWP.

so..
sorry all~
:(

tarot reading

2007-07-25T11:43:00.000+08:00

chance upon this link for tarot card reading.
its so..
GOD DAMN TRUE.

omg..

how you feel about yourself now

You feel discontent or uneasy and feel a need for a change in your life, a new direction, perhaps even an adventure. You might not know where you want to go, just that you don’t want to stay where you are. It's a time for optimism and major decisions - unexpected influences could have a powerful effect on your decision making. Ask yourself, is what you desire really the right thing for you?

what you most want at this moment

The cards suggest that what you most want at this time is some joy and pleasure in your life, perhaps a long needed holiday in the sun to re-charge your batteries. You may have been through a period of challenges or a time of limbo and inactivity. The Sun heralds an ending to difficulties and a time to celebrate with friends and loved ones, a time of pleasure and good news around children or the conception or birth of a longed-for baby.

your fears

You fear letting go, yet this place of limbo and indecision is not a good place to be. Are you being emotionally blackmailed so you don’t go? Don’t be the victim. Sometimes we have to have the strength to let go to attract new positive possibilities in our life.

what is going for you

Despite the fear and bewilderment you feel, and the seeming difficulty of the path you have chosen, keep going - all will eventually turn out fine. The Moon is a good omen if you are in a clandestine affair; it also shows us how to be open to new and unexpected possibilities.

what is going against you

Insecurity is a devil that taunts us but only if we listen to that ‘doubting Thomas’ we all have in our heads. Ignore it. What do your instincts tell you? Perhaps you don’t like what they say? Well you could always go against your instincts, but we all know what that leads to don’t we!

outcome

Courage and self-belief is what you need to succeed. You may already feel overflowing with this, and if so there’s no doubt you will achieve what you want with your career, finances and love life. If you are feeling negative, look inward for that strength and courage, you know you are capable of having self-belief and you’ll reap great rewards.

SO TRUE!
http://www.free-tarot-reading.net/readings/0_reading.php

yes,
it says i can succeed with self belief,
hope my worries can really b eased when my baby's born!
i juz need to keep going!

so cool,
cos its so true.
haha!

a confession

2007-07-21T00:37:00.000+08:00

i felt so guilty for saying this over dinner juz now

'well, i;m not so keen to have this baby'
(so ashame of myself for saying this after some self-reflection)

i feel so bad.
i should have added that i felt this way initially,
but now..
i really love my baby lots.

hmm..
juz wan to hold him and tell this precious baby juz how much i love him~

i felt guilty that i would wan to work after my baby's born.
:(

but not only for selfish reason,
but i really need the money to pull through these few yrs..
i hope one day my baby will understand my absence when he's still young.

there're so many problems n obstacles all along this road of growing,
sacrificing for my baby, and my new family,
sometimes,
i juz can;t make everything perfect.

i really wish i can continue my studies after giving birth,
but who's goin to support my family financially??

i also wish i can spend more time with my baby after he;s born,
but the same prob occur.
seriously,
u need money to survive in this society.

juz another way of expressing maternity love i guess.

i feel so guilty for not pointing put joseph's gd pt every time,
but i can't help it.

he's really sweet in his own way,
but juz not to perfection.
i might as well confess that i'm not a gd wife also.

i spent money on gd food,
and this poor guy,
have to work on both weekend so that we got enough money to spend for the week.

i'm not being very understanding at times,
although i really try hard to let him chill out with his frenz/cousins
once/twice a week.
i can;t really hide the unhappiness that he rather spend time with them than with me.

and i;m upset that he;s spending so much on lottery every week,
even though he's the one who's making income.
-_-

i wish i can do wateva other suggested,
make him listen to me,
make him stay with me,
make him respect me more.

but i can't.
cos he's diff from others.

i can't force him to b wat he can't b.

well,
let's juz pray that i and him can last~

envious

2007-07-16T20:09:00.000+08:00

i'm so envious of other couples.

they're so sweet,
24/7 sticking tgt..
i even have 1 of them tellhing me that the place he frequently is
1)his house
2)her house
3)his work place
4)her work place(to fetch her)
5)his sch
6)her sch

-_-..
and they've been tgt 3 yrs already~!

no,
we're nv such couple (with joseph).

even now, married.
i'm not like tt.

my cousin, married.
is like that.
super sweet n totally dependent on each other.

i'm filled with jealousy suddenly.

mayb its my pregnancy that leads to my emotion unstability
i've been hoping so much that joseph can change for me,
but i guess our 4 yrs plus relationship had SHAPED us to wat we're today.

he's so used to my independence.
he's so used to the freedom i gave him.

i'm so pregnant now (8th month),
and he won't actually worry much abt me taking bus all the way down,
from woodlands to bedok.
juz to have dinner with him.

hai.

my cousin can actually wake up his husband,
in the middle of the night,
and asked for his console when she's having trouble having slp.

no.
not me.
unless i wan a gd scolding from a half-conscious him.

he's gd in his own ways,
juz not to my perfection.

he did sweet things also,
juz mayb...
not enough?

i duno.

tml's our 53th month ann already.

mayb its the hormones acting up.

nonetheless,
i still love him.
as much as 4 yrs ago..

*^_^*

2007-07-10T14:10:00.000+08:00

in the end..
my baby bought me this watch as a surprise present!
hahahhaha!

love him n the watch lots...
hee..

8th month coming

2007-07-06T13:34:00.000+08:00

is this watch nice???
i'm still thinking if i should buy...
cos...
i duno how to read analog watch!
lol..

went for watch hunting..
in the end bought a diesel watch for joseph~
using my hard earn money lo..
past saving...
hee..

went out shopping n walking alot recently,
gues i'm so scare of cinfinement,
n the idea of not goin out for 2 months..
BoO!!

went MS shopping n jo buy me a MNG shade,
n 1 zara top,
both on sales!!!
yippey~
n he buy himself a new lime color crocs..
lol

went to eat at MOF~

the food is really nice!!!!
lol..
i n jo really like it
lol~

another fav. hang out place after pregnancy...
stroll at the beach..

n..
we'll always have MAC!
lol

jo's fav ice chocolate n oreo cheese cake~

& my hot milk~
lol

been trying real hard to b a happy mother..
but its kinda hard..
lol..

followng pics might b disturbing for some,
so skip it if u have weak heart..
lol!!!

super super hot weather..
my feet has got such bad rashes...
n its getting harder n harder to scrtach it..
with the super big belly obstructing my way...
lol~

as all of u can c..
my stomach is bigger than my 14" lappy!!!!!!!!!!

*****not porn ok...*****

my stomach is so stretched n heavy n round...
n big..
n ugly...
n funny...
lol~

the weaher recently is so hot...
n i;m having super bad heart burn..
feet n palms burning
n heart pumping so hard..
damn the bad weather..
its making the whole situation worst!
i nid to shower myself twice daily..
n use small towels to wipe myself multiple times per day!
terrible!

actually i should b happy n satisfy with my life..
my family loves me..
even though they always like to tease me
"y u come home today ah?"
n it hurts sometimes..

my husband who...
treat me quite well...

my in-laws..
who give me all the freedom..
n providing us with funds..

really appreciate them lots~

i think i gonna put up a list of things i nig for my baby,
so for baby shower..
my frenz can buy us things i n baby really nid..

haha~

can i put LV bag on the list??
lol..

i will try to update more often!

1 n 1/2 months to go~

HURRRAYY!!

GSS

2007-06-30T16:19:00.000+08:00

i get tired so easily nowadays!

so i only manage to cover MNG sales.
lol.

bought myself a yellow cardi though~
nothing much to shop since i'm almost broke,
and none of the things i like can fit in.
lol~

the last check-up was gd,
and i'm quite surprise when the doc told me my baby
still have 7cm of space for growth!
lol..
i still tot i'm gigantic enough,
and my skin is already stretched to maximum.

life's gd~
as always..
lol~

think of further study,
but judging from bee's experience..
i dun think i can really cope with a full-time job,
study,
and my baby...
BOoo!!!

i guess confinement is 1 big nightmare for me..
and juz thinking of it brings me slpless night,
nightmare..

i juz wan everything to end soon!

tird trimester

2007-06-19T14:56:00.000+08:00

FINALLY!

7th month pregnant!
lol!!!

the movement of my baby has become so...
STRONG!
lol!
i can't slp in the night when he's actively kicking!

2 more months n i;m done~
n tml's gonna b a impt check up for me n my baby~

hee..

we've also decided to call our 1st presious JOVIEN,
Jovien Ng...
hee..
cute huh?

can't wait for everything to end,
an have a new start..
brand new kind of living with my new family!

woo hoo!

it was after my pregnancy,
den i realise there r pple of our age,
or even younger,
having abortion...

guess not many have the courage to choose the path i choose...

i'm so proud of myself, n joseph.

one day,
my baby will b most proud of us~

i made a choice that i tot i would regret,
but now i know,
i won't.
N i should never regret~

nonsenstic

2007-06-08T18:59:00.000+08:00

self reflection:

i think i treat joseph badly...

hmmm.....
i feel so guilty...

i guess i speak mean,
but i dun mean it...
:(

sorry dear~

i'm so pissed off by stupid comments or advice.
-_-||

esp. from my close frenz who like to say..
"if i were u, i will blah blah blah..."
"if i were u, i won't b...bleh bleh bleh..."

the truth is,
none of us can b like me.
cos none of u is married.
none of u is pregnant.

so, stop acting like u know how to behave if u were me.

guess it really hurts to hear comment from ur fren,
criticizing my life.
or making stupid comment that they think is right...
cos they know nothing,
nothing at all...

2 more months to go~
hooray!

simone!
jia you jia you jia you!!!

bad mood

2007-06-04T12:39:00.000+08:00

is this how pregnancy should b like?

i'm having bad mood practically EVERYDAY

BoO!

so frustrated with everything...

delicate to him

2007-06-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

these few days ain't so well for me,
having leg cramps.

and the food poisoning..
its killing me.

thanks dear for being by my side all these while...
thanks for taking care of me...

i feel blessed, whenever i'm with u.

muackz

fattie me

2007-05-27T12:42:00.000+08:00

^^5 months pregnant

^^ 6th months pregnant!!!

any difference?!!!!

lol...
i look so fat rite??

my stomachs getting so big i can hardly walk!!!
lol!

have bought baby's stuff,
and its costing us a bomb!

bought a baby lullaby cd,
n played it super near my stomach,
lol!

in the end,
i can feel my baby kicking franticlly,
guess its excited abt the music...
and joseph slping soundly beside me
-_-||

my super duper cute cousin's baby,
lol.
guess she dun like the idea of having a new member in my family...
cos she keep insisting my baby's new clothes is hers..
lol~

kinda sad,
cos i missed graduation...
bOo...

anyway,
i managed to meet up my poly babes,
celebrating nabz's bday!
hee..
glad that she likes her present n cake.

i wanna have a big house!
like nabz'
den i can also put pool table in my living room!!!!
hee..

my appetite is getting so big..
i guess i will hit 60 kg by sept..
tsk tsk tsk..

another 3 more months to slack!
haha!
+ confinement...
,mayb 4-5 mths.
so b-o-r-e-d...

gonna enjoy this few months as much as i can,
guess after giving birth,
my life will get hectic!
haha!
hope i can handle my newborn!

i'm goin to ignore all sarcastic remarks from all my frenz,
lol..
my depression has been goin on-off,
and i guess its very unfair for joseph...

poor boy..
i really hope i can control my temper,
my emotions...

*^_^*

hope i can get myself, and mayb for jo n baby,
some stuff during GSS!!

i Muz gO sHoPpInG!!!!!!!!!!

can love b replaced?

2007-05-17T15:56:00.000+08:00

haven been blogging~
but last few days was enjoyable~
hee..

dear actually managed to acc me few days(took mc & not working!)
lol!
*^_^*

mother's day was normal,
cos i didn;t receive any present from jo...
but managed to celebrate with jo's family!!!
hee...
guess nxt yr will b more significant for me,
being a REAL mother!
hee...

went out with bee for a short dinner on mon,
lol
funny hanging out with her,
and chatting abt funny stuff.
lol

went for my kor's POP,
it was a real proud moment to c him standing there,
getting his sergent badge..
hee...
bao bei went with us,
and she's super scare to c my kor in army auit..
lol...

mayb the nxt proud moment will b attending jo's parade or my baby's!!!

(will post her funny photos later)

its our 51th mth ann today~
hee...
hope we can have a nice celebration today!

can u really find someone u love,
someone who will not,
FOREVER,
be replaced?

hee...
i guess not.

yeah,
he/she will leave a place in ur heart,
part of memories.

but i'm sure he/she can always b replaced,
at least duty-wise.
lol

juz like changing gf/bf.
lol.
even now i'm married,
i can't say for sure
one day,
we will leave each other.

but i'm sure we'll leave a place in each other's heaart,
but mayb,
this love can b replaced.

will i b replaced?

genting photos

2007-05-11T11:44:00.000+08:00

My brother with baby en en~

Hee~

well well..

everyone can see that joseph
a.ka. my husband
is getting along real well with kids!

haha!!!!

proud of him!

lol~

managed to meet out bi n amy for a short while,
and hope can meet out other frenz as well~~
occupied my free time!

i'm officially out of job,
sad

-_-

but luckily i can still survive!!!!

after the last check-up,
i saw my baby growing healthy,
lol~
i'm abit worried cos i think my womb provide too little space for him..
lol!!!!

being a happy mother is so impt,
i muz really think positively!

yeah!

i'm so fat now, i can't SQUEEZE into my old skirt already..
BoO!!!!!
but nvm,
my dear juz bought me a new top/dress that i really like~
hee...

graduation is coming up,
and by then,
i would b 6-7mths pregnant..
hee hee hee..

i will look cute in that graduation robe!

lastly,

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!

to ME!

fat

2007-05-08T14:53:00.000+08:00

back from genting..

it was a relaxing trip,
but not as enjoyable..

can't believe we'll still quarrel ont he bus ride.
seems like,
nth really ever changes.
hai...

i'm so so so so sad with my blown my body,
it makes me feel so sad..
hai...

i wanna b slim!!!!!!!!

feeling down

2007-05-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

me & dear..

5 months pregnant & still look pretty!!
^_^

1st baby jumper i bought!!!!!!!
so excited abt my baby!!!!!!

been feeling down recently..
ever since i failed my driving test..

feel like a failure in everything...

no job..
no money..

sometimes i feel so lost

trying so hard to b happy..
so many problems i have to faced...
road ahead really seems...
troubled..

but without my family support..
and not much hlp from jo..
i can feel myself falling apart...

hai...

fear

2007-04-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

if i were to persist...
to act so independent n brave..
if i trust him so much...
will he ever lie behind my back?

insecurity..

excitment

2007-04-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hee~
so excited..

my cousin bought me some newborn set~
hoo hoo..
makes me feel so...
i duno..
can't wait to c my baby wear these nice nice cute cute shirts!

i can;t believe i failed my driving test again..
hai....
nvm...

goin genting next fri~
hee...
happy...

finally 5 months pregnant~

luv my dear n baby!!!!

used to

2007-04-12T21:37:00.000+08:00

life after marriage is so....weird..

but i'm getting used to it...

hee..

first 2 weeks was terrible,

missing my family to much..

but i finally realize that i'm really juz 20 mins (bus ride) away,

and 5 mins(taxi) ride.

lol

so i finally get used to it n NOT CRY SO MUCH!

trying to earn enough money to spend n save,

mayb i nid another part-time job..

hee...

dear dear is my most impt companion in life rite now,

and i think currently,

i really can't live w/o him.

heee...

always like his comany esp. now living in a new family~
ho ho ho

my precious baby is my motivation in life~

can feel its movement and kicking already,

lol...

baby finally 5 months old..

hee...

i'm so pregnant!

moving on with life,

trying to occupied myself,

and plan for my future( & baby!)

life's can't b smooth all the time,

but i'm satisfied with wat i have..

*^_^*

wedding+chalet

2007-03-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

€

hee,
finally i have ended everything for wedding.

so lazy to update anything.

pardon my laziness..will try update again!
cIaO!

random

2007-03-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

ok, my wedding is drewing near
and i'm not very excited.
ha

been to the beach again on sat,
its always so relaxing hanging out with those small gals.
lol
guess this kind of outing is so healthy for me.
lol i nid more exercise, seriously.

days not working is bored,
juz slack n slp.
luckily that naughty bao bei can entertain me.

lol

she makes me smile~

almost all things were prepared.
*grin only i'm not.
-__-||
i know it sounds funny scary
but no run-away bride ok?

its a sad thing tt once again, my ann celebration was spoilt.
:(

i realised his family is too much for me to handle,
luckily i have my own parents who r willing to support me whenever i face trouble.
lol.
feel so safe with my family around me.
almost every time i returned from his house,
i feel like i juz come back to heaven after some world war.
seriously, its that bad.
mayb its cos i've nv see things like tt.
family members trying to 'bite' off each other over small things.
scary.
ok.
watvea.
i'm just goin to sit in my own room n tear quietly,
den call my father for rescue the nxt time.
lol.

"My father's a super hero!"

trying to occupied myself by reading,
crocheting,
playing with bao bei,
everything i can possibly still do now,
lol,
been feeling so restless n bored recently..

did i mention tt i'm actually quite proud to b a PRETTY mother?
and i like telling pple tt i ,myself, think tt i'm pretty. lol!

ok, my thoughts r random,
so the blog is so random.

god, i'm so unhappy

waste money

2007-03-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

ok.

i'm supposed to get this.

but in the end i got this.

waste money.

:(

happy

2007-03-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

hee..

another happy post!

boy?

gal?

boy?

gal?

boy?

gal??

lol...

my baby's most likely a boy~
hee..
and doc commented tt my weight lost is...not gd
:(
but i got medication for it!
no worries!!!

hee..
juz got back my wedding album!!!
yippey!!!!

gonna post 1 that i like the most~

pardon my big arms,
this is b4 photoshop ok..
lol!!!

anyway,
i graduate smoothly from TP
lol.

and i'm goin to get a new hp~
hoo hoo hoo..

y am i getting so much gifts from god?
issit xmas or sumthing?!!

hoo hoo hoo!

ROM

2007-03-09T00:25:00.000+08:00

1st March 2007

The day we become man & wife

sweet huh?
hee...
dearest hubby ma...

others pics of me n my family~

Pretty me!

Me n Darlicious parents!

Mother-in-law, me, & mommy!

The new family

Everyone's present!

hee...

and everything's settled.

Aranda chalet on 26th-2th march..
hohoho!

ROM

2007-03-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

wat a letdown...

sian

2007-02-27T23:06:00.000+08:00

ok,
i realised i haven post any pic of myself for a very long time.
lol.

That's me with Jo's sis.
the only pic i took during CNY. lol

CNY is extremely fun n enjoyable~
esp with my family!
heee...
love them the most...

< Took at the beach last sun with my family

really hate to leave them...

but i know,
i will keep return home n haunt them whenever i like!
lol!

so bored.

today's paper was ok.
another paper to go on fri~
hope can pass pass pass all!!

thurs is my ROM,
no big celebration though.
juz a small ceremony and i think i should b heading home after tt.
*GONNA STUDY*

everything will be simple n nice~

hoo...
so everything's confirmed,

and those who say they care,

and they really care.

please put this fact in ur brain.

wedding night on 24th march.

stop asking me.

and reminder to those WHO DUNO!

my wedding night ain;t no stupid sch gathering!

so,

STOP ASKING ME WHO'S GOING AND WHO'S NOT GOING!
its so irritating n frustrating to know,

MY FREN,
some even i regard as GOOD FREN,
asked my WHO'S GOING FOR THE WEDDING.

X'CUSE ME,
NOT SCH GATHERING.

i gonna repeat again,

ITS NOT A SCH GATHERING!

i always tot pple, like my gd fren,
will come for my wedding to give me their blessing,
share my joy.
NOT COME FOR STUPID FREN GATHERING DINNER!

seriously,
frankly,
if u guys wan to know who's coming,
y not ask them urself?
y muz u ask me?

feel so insulted.
ok,
i'm very pissed by the idea of this wedding dinner,
turn out to b fren gathering thinggie

NOW.

i;m goin to list down the CONFIRMED pple who is coming.

so...
STOP ASKING ME!

Sec fren:
Hui Bee
PeiFang aka Kai Ting
Qiu Xia
Yi hong & BF
Ronnie
Cheng Ghim
Jun Jie
Willis

Wen Bin
Derek
King Leong

Poly fren:
Bi bi
Amy dar
Nab babe
Jacob
Lane & BF
Mei Qin
Wee Kiang
Jeric
Bing Wei

others will b some sec and pri sch teacher, my current boss.

any enquries,
can contact me.

Chalet for wedding and my birthday,

should b on 26th-28th march.

location will be confirm again.

happy new yr!

2007-02-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

hee...

happy new year everybody!!!!!!!!

muahahaha!!

valentine

2007-02-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

lol~

juz celebrated my 4th valentine day with dear,
soon,
another 3 more days will b our 4th yr ann le!
yippey!

today also marks the end of my 3 month pregnancy!
woo hoo!

and take a look at my stomach now...

ok pple,
look.
i'm fat.
lol

u wan fatter??
...
..
..
..
..
..

ok.
not much diff...
lol!

CNY coming!
and i;m missing my frenz..
esp bee.
gosh,
a month since i last seen her..
tsk tsk...

hope this cny i won't gain much weight!!

sch is also coming to an end,
and thanks to my beloved CHECK bosses,
i still manage to earn some petite allowance..
but bets better than nth~!
really appreciate all my bosses!

really feel so much happier to receive so many pple's blessing,
and words of encouragement~
thanks those who have always been by my side,
giving my all the care n love!

wo hui jia you de!

these few weeks spent of the time at home with my xao bao bei,
let's look at some of her naughty naughty photos~

lol..
she so cute!!!

ok,
so many things to share,
but like so naggy.
lol

therefore...
thanks all again!

so u think its easy

2007-02-07T22:52:00.000+08:00

its not easy to get through everything

this prenancy,
this wedding.

the preparations.

no,i'm not blaming anyone
juz the stress we're facing rite now is unbearable.
and so u think its easy.

coping with school work and project is tiring enough,
forcing way through everything with the fatigue i endured.

not forgetting the bloated-ness and the vomitting symptoms that haunt me everyday.

-_-||

now i also need to learn to adapt.
its not as EASY and SIMPLE as some pple thought.
living at a new environment is a great challenge for every human being
and learning to adapt to the pple ard the environment.
just stating an example.

A: hey, ur room want wat color painting
me:hmm..i like light colors, like beign.
A: not nice.

in the end, we juz choose according to the majority's decision.
i'm not complaining.
its juz an example of small things that we nid to learn to adapt.
living with other's opinions.

and a new environments means a new way of living.
i won;t get to watch tv with my family and laugh and joke together
i won;t get to play and quarrel with my brother every night
:(

instead,
i can imagine myself goin back to this new home,
bath
and stay in my own room.

and i've nv tried quarreling with my family b4..
not shouting vuglarity and slamming the doors.
not ever.
but i gotta learn to accommodate to other's living habit.

:)

i will survive

finance is another problem we have to face constantly
other than his parents sponsor (as a blessing i hope) in
our new furniture
my wedding photos
my wedding gold jewellry
and my wedding dinner(hope the hongbao can cover back the losses)

etc etc,
there's so much different kind of expenses that's beyond explanation.
but they've aid in most,
and i;m most appreciative to their contributions~

and yet there's so much problem arise due to money issue.
with my weaken health, i really can't work much.
and i really do nid the money!
and joseph's effort in working for the weekend ain;t helping much.
his weekly's allowance with pay is $200
but petrol s killing us.
tsk...

baby per check up is ard $100
and we have to save and earn up money.
tsk..and dun think its cheap..
we still have to crack our brains for those further check ups and appointment,
and for different checks on blood and several health issue have to charged separately.
how about our labor fees?

these r the things we nid to pay on our own,
our responsibility.
i dun nid help.
i know its ur fault for getting this kind of trouble.
i dun nid critics,
cos we already know.

how abt self dignity?
wat do u know abt it??
getting scolded and laughed at.
ha.
and u think its easy.
yeah..
we deserve it.
but,
i dun think ur critics and scolding will do us any good.
we dun nid the humiliation.

joseph is facing so much almost every night,
from the scolding, humiliation, the critics.
and we got to bear it all.
so who can c the tears we dropped every night?
the troubles we faced?
the little choices we have left in our life.

we juz live with it.

pple can say easily,
the wedding is urs, the decision is urs.
but the cutural background behind every person,
every family,
every dialect
is different.

i dun listen to traditions,
but i obey.
and with the numerous decisio made by the elderly,
i;m only left with little small choices to make for my wedding.

dun every gal have their dream on their perfect wedding??
their perfect way of living?
their dram husband,
dream family.
and wish for ur wedding,
everything will b go according to ur way?

but i dun have that privilege,
and i can;t hold on stubbornly on the little-gal's dream i once had.
those little wishes u made to fairies and god,
and praying o hard that on ur DAY,

UR VERY DAY,
u can b the most beautiful woman on earth,
with the most handsome prince beside u,
smiling...
and things u wished for,
wedding held in gardens?
or the grandest wedding u can ever dreamt of?
dun u juz wan this very day,
to b ur day?

no, i can;t have it.
i can dare say,
this wedding,
90% is decided by joseph's family.
i know the things they do is gd for us,
i truely appreciate their efforts.

i'm not complaining.
but if i dun voice out,
how many pple out there can really feel my pain??
how many pple can understand the struggling within me,
holding back the tears for everything i've lost?

with the numerous problems we facing,
we dun nid any more bad comments.
we dun nid ur reminder on our mistakes.
we dun nid ur doubt on us.
we dun nid to know ur little discussion behind our back.

its not easy..
not easy at all.

my precise

2007-01-31T23:41:00.000+08:00

the pic was removed due to some traditional old saying.

anyway...

my world juz revolves around it now...
brighten up my every day~

life ahead

2007-01-24T23:08:00.000+08:00

so this yr ain;t as bad as i thought.
hee

next few months ahead will be super packed and busy for me
lol

a year for celebration!!

-my cousin got engaged

-i'm getting engaged

-i'm getting married

-i'm going to b a mother

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

super exciting huh??
lol

hope i can pass my driving this yr too
-__-

so everything's settled

24th march will b my big day

those who have more critics than blessing,
juz piss off

those who r happy for me,
i'm more than willing to receive ur blessings

gee..~

looking forward to a brand new life~

a happy mother

2007-01-14T15:06:00.000+08:00

hee..

i'm goin to b a happy mother~

woo hoo!!

a brand new yr

2007-01-02T23:10:00.000+08:00

i thought this yr will b a better yr.

but it proves me wrong.

the more it dragged,
the more u dun feel like doing it.

dear all,
stay with me.

i shall pull through.

sick

2006-12-17T01:48:00.000+08:00

went toilet almost 15 times today.
sick like fuck.

shopping spree was fun~
hee..
get myself so many things.
i'm so happy!

i also have a few more tigger to acc me...
hohoho...

luv everything i have now.

hope i can get well by tml~
zoo day!

//blog is really bored without pics. i nid bluetooth adaptor//

7th n 8th dec

2006-12-11T00:27:00.000+08:00

7th dec: u used to clean every dishes after our meal aat my house

8th dec: he get so angry whenever i treat my family better than him~ lol..

so fast, a month juz pass like tt.

milkshake=nightmare.
but it makes me realise who really cares for me~

*^_^*

thanks all!!

1-6th dec

2006-12-06T01:35:00.000+08:00

1st dec: we went to bukit timah hill once during SARS period..so fun...

2nd dec: we celebrated our xmas n new yr every yr with movies and shopping trip~

3rd dec: once, after quarrel, he left his frenz and head straight to my house. but i was aslp n he was juz there waiting outside my house for few hrs before he head home.

4th dec: he once abandon me by the roadside, and felt so worried. by the time he found me, he was in both sweat n tears.sweet~

5th dec: he said my mouth is sexy. wahahahaa

6th dec: when we were tgt, my fav hobby was to tease him. his shy look really makes me laugh...
:D

i'm so broke.

milkshake this sat. any takeR?

28-30h nov

2006-11-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

28th nov: he used to cuddle me to slp b4 he slp..no matter howtired he was..hee...

29th nov: i loved itwhen we walked home together, can chit chat and laugh our way home

30th nov: he once said i took up 70% of his life...

i'm so happy with my MP presentatin can?!
haha!
thanks my babess (qin and laney)!!!!!!

"good job"

wahahaha!

rushing report now.
tired..
*__*

tired, but i'm happy~

27th nov

2006-11-27T23:55:00.000+08:00

27th nov: he stay over at my house once~so cute and funny! blessful to wake up seeing him in my house..lol..long gone memories

fuck up mood.
wat can i do?
i ain't in the wrong.

26th nov

2006-11-26T01:03:00.000+08:00

26th nov: i luv to wear his red long sleeve top whenever i go oversea~ :)

freaking.
last seen blog=7pm,counter is 1000
now,counter is 1015

hmm,
who read my blog?

anyway,
juz had a 1.5hr chat with bee.
feel so much better.
:)

had a blister frm yesterday's dancing.

PAIN!

25th nov

2006-11-25T20:52:00.000+08:00

25th nov: he used to be very caring and oberservant towards me. USED TO.

thanks bi the most for last night clubbing.

feel real stress up n hurt.
so pain,
i can hardly breathe..

thanzk

2006-11-24T00:34:00.000+08:00

thanks ghim or entertaining me.
thankz babes.
thankz bee.

y do i feel like crying now?

luv u all

24th nov: i juz read the past history message log of our conversation. where is the guy who used to say the sweetest thing on earth? where is the guy who will entertain me no matter how bad my mood is? where is the guy who will talk to me about everything under the sun?

when will a new guy appear in me life?

i'm still unhappy

unhappy

2006-11-24T00:19:00.000+08:00

				Yammylicious				but a ctually i can feel ur sadness
				simoney~				tired
				simoney~				now?
				Yammylicious				but i duno how to comfort u
				Yammylicious				these days
				simoney~				its ok..
				simoney~				lol...
				simoney~				time will heal everything...
				Yammylicious				yeaaa
				Yammylicious				look me up.
				Yammylicious				i will be on standby 24 hrs a day k
				Yammylicious				i see u sad, i duno what to do.
				simoney~				haha..
				simoney~				is it tt obvious...?
				simoney~				tt i'm sad...?
				Yammylicious				eh, i felt it
				simoney~				its ok de...i also dunoy i sad
				simoney~				lol..
				Yammylicious				i understand..
				Yammylicious				hard to explain also
				simoney~				yeah..
				Yammylicious				but i really can feel.
				Yammylicious				but everytime when i felt that, i can only feel useless
				Yammylicious				coz i duno what to do..
				simoney~				haha.,
				simoney~				no al
				simoney~				with u babes bymy side really cheer meup lor
				Yammylicious				i know. but i guess ur pain. none of us can relieve it

luv yammylicious,
i guess she knows how i feel..

7:09:24 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	but, ireally not angryor upset with them...
7:09:31 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	i know
7:09:34 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	just sa
7:09:37 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	sad
7:09:38 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	plain sad
7:09:39 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	juz..
7:09:42 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	mayb
7:09:43 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	abit
7:09:50 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	alsowon;t feel sad
7:09:52 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	like canot seem to cheer up
7:09:56 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	i alsoduno wat's tt feeling
7:09:59 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	yeah...
7:10:12 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	yea
7:10:15 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	i understand
7:10:23 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	yeah
7:10:25 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	lol...
7:10:44 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	make myself bz,occupied..
7:10:51 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	juz seems so...
7:10:54 PM	simoney~	Yammylicious	won;t happy
7:11:36 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	yeaaa
7:11:49 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	u cant make urself happy just becoz u wan urself to be happy
7:11:57 PM	Yammylicious	simoney~	its a feeling.

suddenly,
i felt as though
i'm the most unhappy woman,
nothing will make me happy again..

21th - 23th nov

2006-11-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

21th nov: he udsed to kiss me so that i won't notice the coming bus, and spend more time with me

22th nov: he used tosent mehome and had long chats alnong my crridor.

23thnov: i used to think he look the most handsome when he's concentrating, esp when he's doing A-math

a mistake that haunt.

why,
with al lthe sound and music that blast inmy ear,
yet all i can hear
is my own sorrow

20th nov

2006-11-20T18:25:00.000+08:00

20th nov: we used to take the escalator up and down at cityhall, juz to admire the lights that changes color...lol...tt was long long long ago..

quoted from lane's blog...

"Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another,or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations.. "

so true.. i shall learn from this...

gd luck for my quiz tml~

19th nov

2006-11-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

19th nov: he used to get very bothered and sad after every quarrel, unable to slp. i rmb our quarrel on our 4th month ann, he sent me a sms at 4am, sayinghe feel like singing "ai hen jian dan". i still cried when i listen to that song.

hee, some pple actually commented i look prettier now~
hee..i hope tt's the truth..
lol..

i realised luck is not on my side,
the guy i admired is quiting his job.
:(

anyway,
quote of the day:

"hey! how come u slim down so much ar?"

lol, quoted from BROAN.
lol.

18th nov

2006-11-18T10:55:00.000+08:00

18th nov: we used to take pblic transport tgt, there's once he tried to lick the pole and make me laugh. lol. he will always hug me or held my hands whenever we're tgt~ :) ;competing puzzle bubbles.

a quote

2006-11-17T20:55:00.000+08:00

quoted from sheena's blog...

A successful relationship requires falling in love many times,
always with the same person...

issit true?
i dun think so.
lol.
that quote is funny

the next quote from her blog seems..
more logical..
true..
lol..

"I've learned that things change, people change, and it doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up; it simply means that you move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesn't mean giving up, it means accepting that some things weren't meant to be."

true in my case.

17th nov

2006-11-17T15:08:00.000+08:00

should b a ann celebration today.
hee...
but its ok.
i shall rush my proj and revision for my free time!

17th nov: we celebrated our ann monthly, shower each other with gifts and love. he used to gave me roses during our ann..hee...we were once sweet.

15th nov

2006-11-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

15th nov: he bought me lotsa food and snacks almost everynight when i'm working at GES. and specially came to acc me for lunch when he's free even if its his O level year..

past memories

2006-11-15T00:31:00.000+08:00

let's flash back wat happen for the nov' 04 and nov'05

november 2004

-juz get to know huiyan dying from liver failure
-he waited for me after work to eat n shop with me.
-bougth a handbag and a couple long sleeves top.
-worked at taka christmas fair
-qx bday celebration
-i went cameron highland

november 2005

-juz back from thailand, buri ram
-went to work taka jap fair
-highlighted my hair
-he pierce his ears for me
-i rejected a cafe cartel job
-he bought me new eye shadow and a purse
-feel scare of gaining weight
-felt helpless having one 1 best fren in sch (nab)
-going genting with my family

hee..
info gathered from past blog
having a blog is gd,
so u can reflect and realise actually time flies.
so fast.

lol

pple who were once there weren't there anymore...
like..
huiyan..
my ex-bf...
lol...

memories can b laughable, yet painful.

i rmb a story abt a couple getting divorced,
so the wife requested the husband to carry her to the door step everyday for 1 month.
in the end,
they got back.
'cos they had once forgotten the past, and the intimacy they once shared.

i;m not goin to get back with joseph anymore,
but i wan to make this breakup memorable.
and to show tt i didn't forget the past,
for this month,
8th nov-8th dec.
i'm goin to write abt something we had done, everyday.

8th nov: he sang me xiao wei at the reservoir

9th nov: he celebrated my 16th bday with me. a big tigger as present.

10th nov: quarrelled cos i refuse to say he's my bf in the bus stop

11th nov: he rushed from the funeral thing when he get to know i'm missing

12th nov: he acc me for sunday breakfast everyweek

13th nov: he acc me for revision for O level everyday, juz there.

14th nov: he held my hand on bus 903 for the1st time.

i nv would wan to lost a precious fren liek him,
but...
i guess i can;t force him to b my gd fren..
he'll always b a fren i tresure.

life's sad.
u have to treat someone who knows u the most,
a total stranger.

the rightchoice

2006-11-13T21:57:00.000+08:00

we've made a choice.

and i hope its the right choice.

5 days of work this week.
i will survive.

shagged

2006-11-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

lol...look at how packed my ward robe is...and..alot of my stuff is still washing ordrying...lol...

wardrobe: (shouting!) i hate getting stuffed!!!!

lol.

heee...
quite a enjoyable weekend...

*_* fri *_*

scored well for my presentaion viva1!!!!
lol!!!
triple cheers to SIMONEY,LANEY & QIN!!!

quite pissed off by his attitude.
if he dun wan to pass me the stuff nicely, he could have said earlier.
everything's in a mess.anda top stained.
but its ok, i know its quite hard to manage my clothes cos most of them are white,
and white clothes r hard to maintain.
so its ok.
but he could have apologise instead of giving me attitude.

p/s: he make me sms n apologiseto his sister when my skirt stained her top, and he scolded me when my top is stained.

men r selfish.
bOo!!!

after family dinner, went out with my babes!!
chatting at BK before heading to k-box at cine..
sang overnight...
heee...
fun fun fun!!!
like disturbing amy n bi when they doze off!

issit true that when u're feeling down, u won't feel tired easily??
cos ur mind is too filled with thoughts ,u can;t slp?

anyway, i didn;t feel tiredness tt night...
but fall aslp as soon as i board the train!
lol!

thankz bi and amy for acc me!
thankz alvin for waiting and getting jacket for me!

*^_^* sat *^_^*

after a 1 hr napped,
i went work late...
kena said by alvin :(

and other than being in daze and selling stuff,
i'm making mistakes.
lol.

-stained new jacket with chilli saucce (tt really pissed alvin off!)
-fall from the ladder
-keying the wrong amt for purchase
-get wrong product for customer
-having shoe box falling on me

i'm a failure.

but i start to feel better when some funny customers came,
and asked if i want to go zouk out.
lol

any body interested?

lol!

went home.

thought for tt night

there's a story behind every drop of tears...
can u read mine?

*(^_^)* sun *(^_^)*

woke up after a 4 hrs slp.
went ikea.
shopped like heelllllllllll....
totally shagged out.
but i luv my brothers,parents.
lol

back out from a haircut.

hee..

thought of the day:

i want to get myself a real nice shoe.
nine west.

total slping hrs for these 3 days: <10>

i'm losing appetite also
total intake for 3 days:

-fri: a packet of vitasoy
: 1/4 rice with food for family dinner
-sat:1 piece of pumpkin
:4 piece nuggets
-sun:1 saugage
:1 packet of hello panda

breaking up is gd.
signs of slimming!!!!!

at times,
i still miss him so much.
my heart is aching,
save me

changed mind

2006-11-10T14:32:00.000+08:00

i thought everything has came to the end.

i know we're unsuitable.
i've accepted the fact that his hobbie is more impt than me.
i've accepted the fact tt i wouldn't wan tto go back,
'cos i dun wan to b the 2nd in his life.
lol..
and i though with this reason,
i can put everything behind.
no pain, no sorrow
no sadness.

now i get the truth.
he was lying behind my back all the while.

he smokes.
lol.
and i put my whole trust in him.
ha.

now think,
who knows what he 's been doing all those night??

bleah.
i dun wish to think anymore!
hee..
i shall b forgiving and take all these lightly!

\(*-*)/

thankz babes for taking n cheering me up~
thankz for babe's company!!!
hee..
thankz bee for being so nice too~
thankz alvin for his company also~
:)

and i realise i can, too,
do alot of thing even without him!

mighty mighty mighty simoney!
3 cheers!

i'm a happy gal.
i shall b a happier gal!!!

k through the night!!!
lol

guess for the nxt few days or weeks,
i will b too bz to blog.
lol...
work.
project.
renovation.
meeting out with frenz.
god.
i dun even have enough time to breath.
lol

whoosh whoosh whoosh!
jia you jia you jia you!!!!!!

looking forward to a brand new day everyday~

cheerios~

feelings for this song..

2006-11-09T22:24:00.000+08:00

a song to describe my feeling.

present:
blind-lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

sinking

2006-11-03T01:55:00.000+08:00

u thought u luv it this way.
u thought.

but by the time u realise.
it aint luv.
but u're sinking in.
u're stucked in it.

stp struggling.
u might find ur self sinking deeper.

wait.
waiting for someone to pull u out.
u waited. in silence.

when?
when will tt someone come?
where's the helping strenght?
when will fate bring u n him tgt?

.stuck.
and u're still waiting.
.help.

-silent-

---------------------------------------------------------------------------------

been busy with sch n work recently~
:)

spend alot recently.
2 shorts
3 slippers
1cd
3 tops
1 skirt

broke.

yeah..
been feeling down recently.
every single thingget on my nerves.

damn.
i'm losing interests.
and i stare at the long journey ahead.

.blank.

SCH START

2006-10-22T01:42:00.000+08:00

new time tables looks pleasing enough~
but i'm goin to change my elective..
hope my new time tabke will b better!!!

:)

finally will get a break from work tml..
lovely family day again~
miss my dad n bro!!

living with my cousin was ok...
but..
afterall its not my house...
:(

hope renovation can speend up!!!

went vivo city the other day..
bought alot of tibits there~

bought a bouquet of candy flower for hui yan..
*blink*blink*
and she's gone for almost 2 yrs already...
the thought of her still bring pain...

1 of my sec sch mate accident..
derek...
fracture n dislocate his pelvic/thigh.

multiple examples to prove that having a class 2 licence is dangerous

dad called ne at least twice to remind me to drive carefully while learning
lol!!!

wed's the TP and i'm not ready.
at all.
ghosh.
gonna book more practise b4 i fail!!!!

my precise bb told me i got a stretch mark...
QIN TIAN PI LI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i started complaining n getting all worried n paranio.
seriously.
no woman like stretch marks.
i rather die than have a single stretch mark.

and.
i TOT its a REAL stretch mark!!
in the middle of the night,
11pm-12.30am
i n bb was in the playground playing n exercising.
lol
damn fun.

tragic have to happen when ya having fun
i pushed bb down,
n he fall.
FACE DOWN.

poor baby.
now bruised face.

lol..
b my ZHONG WU YAN!!
lol

luv ya bb~

a slap in the face

2006-10-18T23:00:00.000+08:00

juz when u thought u're in heaven.
juz when u thought the path ahead will b as smooth as ever..
someone got to slap u in the face.
HARD
and bring u back to reality.

tt's us.
nothing between us can last forever.
nothing.

with a drop of tear,
i'm back to earth.
sudden feeling of emptiness.
as thought the past few days were juz part of illusion.
part of imagination.

our world can;t b beautiful forever.

anway,
met up with babes too on mon..
glad to hear from them~

wish me all the best for my up coming TP~~

^___^

bACK

2006-10-15T01:19:00.000+08:00

back to sg.

bali was nice.
sweet memories.

returned.
but everything changes.
no more honeymoon.
no more home.

house renovation in progress..
currently living with my cousin family..
will try to update pics when i get my lappy back.
gonna start work soon.

school gonna start!
driving test on the 25th.
not prepared at all!

things changes,
how i wish to turn back time.
time pass by,
and we only have memories growing.
and yet losing precious things on the path of growing.

will try to update on pics..
HOME will b ready by end of month i hope..

pre-bali

2006-10-09T23:06:00.000+08:00

hee..
4 days of hoilidays ahead..
bali!!!

10th oct-14th oct..
i'm a happy gal~

yippey!

house undergoing renovation...
no HOME for a month!
BOO!!!!!

my bro

2006-09-25T01:38:00.000+08:00

only managed to catch some glimpse of him inthe past 2 days..
and he's back in there already...
luv his funny stories..
hate his botak hair..

well..
i'm missing him....
luv everything that he had done and said to me..

in a bad mood

2006-09-25T01:30:00.000+08:00

not in a gd mood now...

found myself a new job at CHECK..
hmm..
quite nice~

have to work so much for the BALI trip~
and...
driving lesson??
yay..in debt right now...
ha..

been hoping to have a meet-up with my babes..
but its so hard to plan...
hope i can meet up my darling this week!!!
**since both of working in orchard...ya??

:) :)

babes babes...
let's meet for a chill out soon..ya?

tot i can go for a suntanning session tml..
hee..
but ended with a spoilt plan..
an ugly mood..

ARGHZ!!!!

when will i have time to re-run my project???
i duno..
i dun wish to think...

:(

someone save me from hell!!

boring school

2006-09-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

i failed our project...AGAIN!!!!

had a fun time chatting with my grp mates on mon...
haha...mei qin n lane
so long b4 we met again...
they makes me laugh..
they makes me think...
lol...

project seems quite successful for the 1st day...
ya...
today my gel failed to polymerised after 3 trials...
nothing i can do abt it...
haha!

labby's fun!!!
some pics!!!

scary??? lol...daylight also got ghost...

her playing in the mist of liquid nitrogen..

been so free..
waiting for my bro tobkout this fri!!!
yippey!!!

hope CHECK will accept me real soon...
lol...

my current job is sickening..
killing me...
boring...

i nid more money!!!
any job to intro?
lol...

....
..
.
a nice pic for all to envy...

sry guys..

2006-09-18T02:14:00.000+08:00

bleah!!!!!
so long didn't blog le!!!!
so many things happened!!!!!
haha...

expect slow loading again...
too much pics...
lol...

bo bian...
cut short everything!!!

went marina square with hb...
endedup with a pair of exhausted legs...
and a pair of broken heels...
:(
suntec was well decorated!!!
:)

some small pics of us!!

lovely flowers~

us at the bridge..finally reached fullerton!!

went DXO for a chill out session with my babes...
THE NEST was ok...
but the dance floor was hell...
anyway..
my babes leave early...
leave me alone in there (couldn't stay outside cos its raining..)

DXO sucks big time...
think its for maids and gays..
lol...
anyway...
some pics!!!

us at nest..so cosy there...

Babes mission completed: rule DXO!

today went to celebrate our 43th month ann!!
watched movie.
exchanged presents.
yeah...
kinda disappointed with him initially...
but...
have to forgive him..
anyway...
appreciate his efforts here n there~
some pics!

lovely us~

present..
from him to me....muackz..

he went for a snack at foodcourt..
his fav. indonesian chicken set!!

some cute pics of us! taken by the laptops!

Had manhanttan....

the food served..

he ate and slpt...

he wake up and bill!

very sweet us...
muackz...
happy ann...

a nice joke

2006-09-12T00:54:00.000+08:00

Mr. Bradley and his wife have moved to a new apartment in a new building on the 11th floor. The building wasn't yet completed since the elevator wasn't yet installed. So they had to take up the furniture through the emergency stairway. With difficulties and sweat, and by the end of the day, they managed to complete the task. Mrs. Bradley wanted to do laundry so she asked Mr. Bradley to be a good boy and go down to Mr. Peabody's new store and buy her soap detergent. Mr. Bradley went down the stairway from the 11th. floor and entered Mr. Peabody's new store.

Mr. Bradley : "Hello Mr. Peabody. I would like some soap detergent for my wife."

Mr. Peabody : "What brand name is your washer machine?"

Mr. Bradley : "Why??.. I don't know ... Why? "

Mr. Peabody : " I can't sell you soap detergent unless you told me the make of your washer machine. I have a store to run and I care about its reputation Mr. Bradley.

Mr. Peabody continued to refuse to sell Mr. Bradley soap detergent unless he told him the make of his washer machine.

So Mr. Bradley became very angry and had to leave and go all the way back up the stairway to get what Mr. Peabody wanted. When he found out the brand of his washer machine, he went back all the way down and told Mr. Peabody the his washer machine's make was (GENERAL ELECTRIC).

Mr. Peabody : " What's the voltage. Is it 110 or 220 volts?"
Mr. Bradley : " I don't know and I don't care! ... Just sell me the stupid detergent!!!!..."

Mr. Peabody : " I can't.. I just can't risk the reputation of my new store. You have told tell me the voltage of your washer machine."

So angrily... Mr. Bradley had to go all the way back up to find out the voltage. As he was going down the stairway, sweating like a dog, he met one of his neighbors, Sam. Sam was naked waist down, and very angry, carrying a toilet seat and going down the stairs also sweating like a dog.

Mr. Bradley : " SAM.... what in the world is going on? why are you naked waist down and carrying a toilet seat?"

Sam : " Leave me alone Mr. Bradley... I'm very angry right now and don't feel like answering." Mr. Bradley kept insisting on Sam to tell him, but Sam kept quite and was getting angrier until they both entered Mr. Peabody's store.

Sam quickly went in, very angry and stood in the middle of the store and yelled as loud as he could saying : " Well Mr. Peabody.... Here's my toilet seat and also here's my ass... NOW.... WOULD YOU PLEASE SELL ME MY TOILET PAPER??"

pics!!!

2006-09-10T23:46:00.000+08:00

he book in???

NNNNNNNNNNNNOooooooooooooooooo

he's the star!!!

sobz...i cried when he was forced to tuck in his shirt..
wat an emo bitch..

taking this ferry to tekong park...

me and my younger bro!!

my bro....

i'm so sad he's leaving!!

he supposed to have these rations...

some funny packets of food...

we parted...

bOo....

hai...
missing him...

a pics of lynn and me!!!
luv her punky pink streak!!

a havoc week

2006-09-10T23:25:00.000+08:00

went sungei buloh with my family juz now..
yeah..
1st timew/o him by my side..
1st time we went family outing without him..
sudden emptyness...
hai...
i miss him...
1st time leh!!!
he isgoin to b away from us for so long..
2 fucking weeks...

:(

sobs..

tonight he didn;t call back..
he muz b exhausted..
my poor baby..
:(
missing my bro right now!!

yeah..
my bro bk in last fri..
:(
sad...
somepro with the stupid photobucket..
so i didn't post any pics...

sat and sun went to hlp lynn and her mother!!
hee..
earn a freaking $40!!!
haha!!!
pass it all to my mom though...
lol...
noww/o my bro...
i have to hlp out with the housechores!!!
hmph!!!!

:~(

so i wasted my weekends doing nth.
cheerios~

i was tagged

2006-09-10T23:06:00.000+08:00

got tagged by lynn..

Here are the rules...

Do the following WITHOUT complaints.

Choose 5 people to do this after you have completed yours.
Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged.
Start your post with I have been tagged! Then do this.

Current Mood: normal
Current Taste: plain
Current Clothes: brown
Current Desktop: ???
Toenail Colour: brownish-red
Current Time: 1108
Current Surroundings:lving room
Current Annoyances: none
First Best Friend(s): all listed below
Current Best Friend(s): bee, qx, amy, bi bi, nabz, lynn...
First Crush: my pri schteacher..mr rajah
First Movie: forget le..
First Lie: forget le..
Last Crush: secret..lol
Last Movie: ssmall man...with qx!!
Last Phone Call: forget le...should b my aunt..
Last song played: linger..by cranberries..
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: hee...jo
Have you ever broken the law: nope!
Have you ever been arrested: No
Have you ever skinny-dipped: no
Have you ever been on TV: no
Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: No
5 things you are wearing: hair band...a tee..shorts...hmm..bra and panty?
4 things you did today: work,went out with family, eat dinner, get my pay, watch tv.
3 things you can hear right now: sms ringtone, mouse clicking, tv show background.
1 thing you do when you're bored: slp
People I tagged: none..

bored lady

2006-09-08T00:28:00.000+08:00

bOo...
readers should have sense my bored-ness...
been updating my blog so often... lol...

anyway...
wat can i b doing at home???
hee...
playing with the baby~~
hee..
some very cute pics of her!!!

she wore my bro's socks!!!!!!!!!
so long!!! up till her thigh!!!

tt silly gal climbed into my bro's mattress!!

wat are they doing????

she's so cute!!!!!!!!!!!!

issit she awesome?
cute?!!!
haha!!

went to watch movie with qx...
too bad....
forget to take pics with her!!!
anyway...we watched "small man"
quite funny...
but disgusting too..
lol..

followed by a chatting session with jue min~
hee..
some pics~

haha!! all the pics r so blur!!!
cos we tookthem while walking...

he walked me home from cwp!!!

haven met him for some yrs already...
he still looked the same~lol

thankz for all their company!!!
muahaha!!
i'm a boring,lonely crazy lady!!

tml my bro goin NS le...
so sad...
:( :( :( :( :( :(

i took a glimpse of our past..
.
..
...
....
pple changes...
envt changes...
luv changes...

yippey week

2006-09-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

bOo..
i now weight 52kg...
:(

its ok...
hee...
i have fun these few days~

some photos with my hoon hoon...

see wat see?!!

haha! 2 babes!!!

lol...
mom's bday celebration is a success!!
she's a lucky wife..
a happy mom...
a blessed lady~
lol...
love her lots~
every cousins attended the sakae dinner~
with my aunts too!

lol..
some pic of my fav....
en en baby!!!!

do we look alike???

fat fat baby~

r u looking at me???

i dun like my hair!!!

do i look cuter with my hair tied??

haha! she's staring into my hp!!!

finally..a decent pic of the dear dear baby and her mother~

..............
.........
.....
..
.

followed by my jo bb!

went wild wild wet with my dear today..
fun fun fun!!!!
yippey!!!!!!
too bad..
no pic!!!!
lol!

wei booking in in 2 days...
:(

will miss him lots....

i nid a job!!!!!!!!!!!!!
any recommendation???

:( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :( :(

a busy week~

2006-09-05T00:25:00.000+08:00

hee~
happy with my holiday~
happy with the huggies i receive~

my bro goin to book in this fri already..
quite sad for everyone..
even thought only 2 weeks...
but..
i'll miss him de..
bOo..

went to climb bukit timah hill on sun~
and
went to visit my dad's new creation!!!
juz admire my dad...can build somehting so nice and cosy...

The pool and a jacuzzi...

my whole family chilling out at the roof top~

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

today went to watch monster house..
scary cartooon!!!!!!!!!!!
bOo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but it was quite fun watching with joseph...
he and i...same...
chicken..
children horror also scare...
alamak...
lol!!!!
some pics i took with him...

lovely ma?

bOo!!! no more pics??

haha...more to come..

haha..
sometimes...
its better not to c things too clear...
u might b happier...
lol...

juz finding xcuses for these pics!!!!
lazy to scan in...
lol!!!

very very cutelicious us ba??!!!
haha!!!

thankz hoon babe~
tml acc me go gym~
yeah babe!

tml my mom's bday~
sakae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
here i come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alot

2006-09-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

a very very long post...
hee...
goin to update for everything tt happened for the past week!!!

****sorry!!!!
lotsa pics..expect slow loading....****

last sun~
went kent ridge park with my family!!
yippey!!!

happy gathering with the kids~

nice nice scenery...

kids playing with a pup~

monday went k-boxing with my cousin, cousin's bf..and jo~
haha!!!
an extremely fun and crazy singing session!!!!
haha!!!!
i luv them all!!!

both of us snatching the mike~~~

i sing alone..and my cousin refuse to take photo~

Finally forced her to take photo with me~ luv her!!!

some funny pics taken in sch with my babe...

3 of us...

my silly them...haha..

titanic???

haha!!!

very very crazy us!!!!
luv them lots!!!!

yeah yeah....
maine was hospitalised..
bike accident...
hope she can get well soon!!!

she look well???

bleah...haven visit her for 2 days already...
been so tired!!!!
so sorry!!!!
im a pig...

hee...thurs

when to eat haagen daaz with jo~

envious??? in his car...haha

trying to squuze his head!!!! but he looked bored...

surprised by the big serving!!!!

funny pics of him~

haha~ lovely...dovey us...

hee~

went clubbing last night at zouk...phuture..
shagged...
drunk..only drink 2 sprite vodlka...
wat's wrong with me???

vomitted...
dance and have fun like hell..

poor bi bi babe...
vomitted 3 times!!!!

anyway..
i had great fun...
not so much for my other babes~
ha..

i luv them...luv giving them kisses...
yeah...
amy kiss me lips lips before i vomitted...

she feel shy by my kisses~

overnight at amy house...
slpt at 6am..
wake up at 8am...
reach home at 10am...
chat with mom n eat till11 am...

slpt all the way till 6pm

i'm a pig!!!!!

he's returning from malaysia tml...
welll....
we shall see... :)

a nice weekend

2006-08-27T14:25:00.000+08:00

hee...
juz goin to update some photos~
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

funny him...go tie his own hair...haha~

find this photo funny~
haha!!!

with or withput cardi???

with or without clip???

cute ma?!??

see wat see?!!!!!!!

ciao~

funny comic

2006-08-26T15:58:00.001+08:00

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Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

congrats..

2006-08-25T21:54:00.000+08:00

congrats me...
i'm a idiot...

i broke my matric card.
fuck god damn!!!!

project didn't go as smoothly..
=(

hope next week will b a better week..
gonna work harder...

!!!!!i need jobs!!!!!!!!!!!

swimming day!

2006-08-23T21:10:00.000+08:00

went swimming with mei qin and lane juz now..
so damn funny...
haha!!!

lesson learnt:dun swim with unshaved pubic hair***

lol!!!!!
damn funny!!

anyway..
i'm tanned slightly...
natural blusher?
haha
**i wish...**

anyway...
i realise my name is kinda unique.
PLEASE!!!
my name is pronounced as "see-mon"
not "sai-mon"

therefore, simoney="see-mon-ni"
NOT "SAI-MON-NI"

actually..my name should b like...classsic...nice...unique...
until a tv prog called "pokemon" was screened...

-_____-|||

anyway...

haha....some pics of myself to entertain everybody!!!

hope this time our project will b a successful one~
:)

so very very very blessed and happy with all the huggies!!!
:)
thankz my super sexy babe!!!!

love ur huggies...

:)

in school now

2006-08-22T10:56:00.000+08:00

in school now..
meiqin slping beside me...
hee..
finally redo my blogskin..
this one much sweeter~
hee...

i've gain back 1 kg!!!
gonna work harder and lose more weight!!!
been spending so much money recently...
bOo...

new oobession...

my new havaianas sandals~
wahahaha!!!
love it lots!!!

wanna work soon!!!
i'm so broke!!!!

:(

hope this week's experiment will b a success~
:D

Cranberries-linger

2006-08-18T23:35:00.001+08:00

this song lingers in my mind...

proudly brought to you...

Linger...by cranberries

If you, if you could return, don't let it burn, don't let it fade.

I'm sure I'm not being rude, but it's just your attitude,
It's tearing me apart, It's ruining everything.

I swore, I swore I would be true, and honey, so did you.
So why were you holding her hand? Is that the way we stand?
Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

Oh, I thought the world of you.
I thought nothing could go wrong,
But I was wrong. I was wrong.
If you, if you could get by, trying not to lie,
Things wouldn't be so confused and I wouldn't feel so used,
But you always really knew, I just wanna be with you.

But I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

And I'm in so deep. You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

You know I'm such a fool for you.
You got me wrapped around your finger, ah, ha, ha.
Do you have to let it linger? Do you have to, do you have to,
Do you have to let it linger?

happy

2006-08-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

juz back from the dinner treat with ronnie, ghim and ricky...
very funny with them..
wahaha~
enjoy their presence lots...
lol..
they makes me laugh...

lol...

my project finally succeed!!!
love my proj mates lots!
we finally made it b4 end of SIP!
yippey!!!

hee....ugly ugly ugly laney....
finally caught some of her ugly look...
slpy slyp slyp little piggy...
slp some more ba!!!

me sneaking up on her...
wahaha

bleah....pretty bitches..

went to li sheng jie concert yesterday..
some pics...

i dun really like him though...

haha!

i'm one step closer to ur heart...
back or front..
ugly or pretty..
happy or sad...
u're the best...

another babe of mine...
she's my no 1...

both of them are my fav..
*grin~

nth beats the smile on their face~~

tml gonna b a chill out cum shopping day for me~
yippey~

one funny thing ron and ricky did today..
sneaking up my hp pictures and making funny noises..
grining , laughing and bOoing over some off my pics...
and i duno which pics they're making fun of!!!!

and one is extremely funny!

ron n ric: "EEEeeee, ur fren wear until like tt!! exposed la"
both again:"tsk tsk...y u take her pic till like tt!!! she wear until like tt already
u still take her pics from above!! zuo guang leh!!!!"

mone:"!!!! which one????"

ron:"the one with the white singlet la!"

stunned...(thinking issit amy...)

ron:"wa lau eh...her cleavge...tsk tsk..all the way down ar!!!!! so sexy!! i dun wan to say la..."
rick:"ya lor! yu fen! u very bad leh!!! sexy man! cleavage ar...deep sia..."

*tried to snatch my hp away from them and c tt pic, but failed*

while they continue to scroll and laugh, bOo and Waaaa over some of my other pics...
i so worriedabt which pic tt was...

after 10 mins or watsoeva...
they finally show me tt photo..
of tt "very sexy babe" tt zhuo guang....

LAMER!!!!!!!
god damn. they makes me laugh